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2009-01-24T01:10:00.003+08:00

Sian whole day cant go out again ....
I really dont understand what part of freedome my parents dont understand
I want to live my life to the fullest now since my time is limited
But .... They always lock me in the house

ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SIAN LA !!!!!!!!!!
CAN U GUYS GIVE ME SPACE !!!!!
I NEED SPACE !!!!!!!!
PLS !!!!!!

Anyway today found a new song ...

Just A Little Too Not Over U by David Achuleta...

Really nice song ~~~

2009-01-21T18:04:00.003+08:00

I wonder if that is my brother or sis =.=
Sian lo my boobs also not so big LOL

Guess where did he travel to ^^

Let me intro u to my brother .

Does he look cute =.=

Anyway whole day cant go out nothing to do so was messing arround at home here are some of the pics .

Enjoy xp

2009-01-21T02:12:00.002+08:00

Today finally got my hair cut & also dye my hair le HEHE ....
But then abit regret dye my hair coz now i got new nickname le - Grape Head =.=
Donno y my hair de colour look so bright Josh de also not so bright
I really look so emo now somemore with this hair cut
Promised nuer will show her my hair
So tomorrow will take pics to put on blog
Hope nuer dont freak out LOL
Found a new drama to watch - 1 Liter Of Tears
The drama kindda reflecting to myself ( Wanna know what i'm talking about go watch the drama xp )
Should consider myself lucky at least i can still walk
But life is not easy with this sickness

Think i'll end here ba ~~ Back to watching drama ^^

Sayonara

2009-01-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

Today my head nearly explode >.<
Wanted to change blogskin didnt know it was so hard
Desmond teach abit but then still very blur about it
Took me about 3 hours to do the thing
But at last also cmi
Had to ask alvin help me do coz i was very blur n also headache liao at that time
Thanks Lvin for the help ^^
Afternoon went to see how did Josh de hair turn out
1st sight - OMG so ... so .... so .... jialat la ur head look like grapes sia LOL
Got spanking from Josh after i said that lol
But then was fun seeing him get angry lol

Today was not a bad day at least nothing bad happen

Hope tomorrow also will be a good day

Abit scared of tomorrow coz it will be the day my hair also turn purple like Josh

ARgh !!!!!!!!! Help me ~~~~~~~~~

2009-01-19T02:06:00.002+08:00

YES !!! Today finally can go out coz parents not at home wakaka ....
Went to Sungai Wang & Time Square with Josh & Joan
So long nvr go le change alot le
Bought some clothes & got a hair cut ... ( I look so emo with this hair style zzz )
Goin to dye my hair again
Colour purple ofcoz but this time gonna bleach my hair
HAHA ... Hope go out ppl dont think i'm a freak xp

Still thinking if i should give Josh a chance

Hope i can give him an answer soon

Dont wanna waste his time anymore ....
Ok tired le end here ba ^^

2009-01-17T03:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th bday Desmond
May all ur wish come true

Trying to forget the past n look ahead

Promised nuer will be more cheerful

Hope i can do it so she wont be heart broken n also ppl arround me not to worry

Cant really sleep donno y

Maybe thinking too much ba

Wish Something can make me not think about the past

Try to smile more but seems so hard but will try my best ba

End here le ^^

2009-01-16T02:30:00.002+08:00

Whole day so bored nothing to do sit at home rot ....
Want go out mom say cannot (GRRR ....) say scared i will faint la this n that (Tolong La !!!)
Well i donno she can see into the future or what (hmm... i wonder) , in the afternoon really did faint
Haiz ....
Y la everyday faint if not then puke or what fuck ...
Sian la this kind of life ....
Might as well die better , stay here waste time nia n also waste money pay hospital bills ...

Haiz ... End here ba nothing much to say le

君を愛した日々は僕の最後の奇跡
君を愛してるのは僕の最後の永遠

Sayonara ~~~

2009-01-11T05:07:00.002+08:00

Wanted to play back my cabal but then donno y my 100 m ++ alz gone zzzzz

sian diao

my helm also gone earing gone ring also ....

haiz ......

2009-01-08T16:29:00.002+08:00

ran out of hospital stay in there so sian .....

then yesterday go table talk with setapak de dai lou (ah beng) ....

bullshit bullshit bullshit , small problem want make big .

haiz .....

so wu liao ....

my life now is looking for trouble , making trouble n find ppl come kill me since i wait so long also not yet die

2008-12-31T00:12:00.002+08:00

boring day went out go walk walk ....

walk half way faint ...

haiz ....

life is so meaningless now ...

tomorrow new year le ...

should be happy but yet feel so empty ....

nothing much to post so i think i end here ba ....

2008-12-29T23:17:00.003+08:00

sorry long time nvr blog d ...

was in sg for a while ...

no internet so cham T.T ....

things have been tough struggling most of the time but cant complain really ....

i see desmond have a new gf already good for him .... wish u good luck on this relationship ...

most of my time now is spent in the hospital .... layying on the bed day dreaming ....

what a life ....

anyway i'll end here nothing much to say ....

2008-11-21T00:24:00.002+08:00

Everything change le Nothing left to cherish
What we had has faded guess it will nvr come back anymore .
Didnt know just a few days made so much differents in such a time wasting journey .
Finally end but no one is happe with the ending ba .
Guess is all my fault for not letting u know ba .
Both sides have been hurt maybe its time to stop le .
Not meant to be together some say , or is it just becoz of this distance , or is it trust ??
I dont know the answer .
If any of u know pls do tell me .
Coz i am lost now in a Maze i cant make any decisions right now .
Do i have to carry on living like this ??
I guess the answer will be yes coz i have no more str to stand up again .
I'm just too tired .
Too tired to carry on .
Wish to end but i made a promise .
We dont talk anymore even in sms we seem to be like argueing all the time now .
Is It REally My Fault ??
Am i wrong for trying to make u happy ??
or is it wrong to make u smile ??
been crying for days .
haven't been sleeping .
Or should i say i dont wanna sleep .
Coz everytime i close my eyes all i see is u .
how i wish i could have my heart removed .
Coz it really hurts too much to have A Heart .

Is It REally My Fault ?? Can SomeOne Answer Me Pls .... I Need The Answer ~~~

2008-11-08T09:49:00.002+08:00

Clueless

Emptyness

Will Be Emoing The whole Day So Pls Dont Disturb Me & Fuck Off

Thank u o0o

2008-11-08T09:41:00.002+08:00

Been gone for so long le think is time to write something on blog le ba
Looks so lifeless like me xp
lol...
Donno y i having second thought of goin down sg now ...
Seems like there is something goin on n yet i cant figure out what ....
Am i thinking too much or is it the facts ??
Seems like there is a gap between us n i dont think it is a small problem
I donno what i am feeling now ...
Is it the fear of losing u or is it trying to tell me to give up ??

2008-10-29T00:18:00.003+08:00

Feel So Bored

Wish i could have wing so i can fly to the sky

Free like a bird , i can go where ever i want

The wide blue sky

Really envy animals with wings

Wonder how it feels like flying in the skies

Really want to to know how it feels

Can i have wings pls
xp

I think i need a doctor le
lol

Need someone to open my heart for me

So many things in my heart i want to let out

But it seems like there is a big wall infront of me blocking me

Haiz .....

My Heart Is Taken & Broken By U

Pls Take It Away

2008-10-27T23:06:00.003+08:00

Another day of pain n suffering ....

Y cant our brains be like a computer ??

Dont like the memories just delete then

*Poof*

-Gone-

Very hard meh ??

Y do we have to remember those hurtful memories ??

Is there anyway i can delete those unwanted memories ??

Money is not a *PROBLEM*

I just want it out of my head !!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Eyes Hurt From Crying , My Heart Aches Trom Trying & In The End I Still Have Nothing ......

2008-10-26T03:35:00.002+08:00

Haiz .... Fell so lifeless now ...

Everything look so pale to me now ...

Wondering when will this tragic end ...

Am i really that unlucky ??

Everybody ask me to hold on mayb things will change ...

Will it really change ??

What if it wont change ??

So many questions ...

Yet noone will answer me ...

Haiz .....

2008-10-18T06:21:00.002+08:00

Haiz .... today had to go to the hospital again for check up stupid doctor told me my brain still got bleeding wtf !!!

Now every week need to take injection argh !!!

Needles !!!!

I hate needles !!!

They freak me out !!!

Y cant it just end after the operation T.T

Y Tell me y T.T

I have suffered more then enough le y cant life just be easy for just a short moment

Cant i have a normal life without MEDICATION & NEEDLES !!!!!

I hate this life !!!

DEAR GOD IF U ARE UP THERE PLS HEAR ME OUT !!!

I NEED U TO ANSWER ME PLS ~~~~~~~~

2008-10-14T02:13:00.003+08:00

So long nvr write blog le think my blog dead liao lol

This yr bday so sian got party also cannot go out till late at night coz sick T.T

bad flu n cough so many days le till now also not yet recover =.=''

Worried about dear he now getting nose bleed again le mayb coz weather cold so his nose sensitive ba ~~

Tired le think i go sleep le ba later need go dye my hair again colour fade le >.<

2008-10-10T00:41:00.003+08:00

Haiz this 2 days sick like sai .....

First day flu

Second day cough n fever Argh !!!!!!!!!!! ... coughing like a dog now haiz .........

I hate getting sick

I hate getting fever coz i get fever my whole body pain like ah poh liao (old liao) ~.~

think i end here ba need to rest early today ~~~

2008-10-07T23:09:00.002+08:00

Weee ~~~ Today so happy i coloured my hair purple lol

I know it sounds abit freaky but i like it make me look emo haha ....

Really happy with the colour Thanks Angie ❤ ^^

Spend almost the whole day at the hair studio to get the hair done .

Dear say want to see me with my new hair lol

Wonder he will jealous or not since he love purple >.<

Been a tiring day so i think i will end here ba ^^

2008-10-05T02:42:00.003+08:00

Today is officially the worse day of this month !!!!!! ARGH !!!!!!!!!! I just wanna scream !!!!

Today went to lan shop to find alz sellers coz i got somethings i wanted to buy in cabal but then dont have enough alz . then found this guy Leong he say he selling alz n he showed me his cabal char which had about 3b inside (i needed 1.5b) he say he selling his alz coz he is goin to quit cabal le then he said 1.5b he charge me for Rm 350 so ok since its ceaper then the alz sellers on website so i gave him the money n exchanged phone numbers so i could contact him later coz i didnt want to on my char in lan shop scaed tio keylogger or something . Then got back home n found out that the things i wanted in cabal already soldto someother ppl liao !!!!!!!!!! argh !!!!!!!

Ok nvm i called up the guy to get my alz since i already paid for it hoping to find some other guy who sells the thing i wanted he say meet in game .

Waited for fucking 1 hour he nvr show called him he say he trying to online now..... WTF Sia

After that 2nd - 3rd phone call he offed his phone !!! Son Of A Bitch !!!

There goes my Rm 350 !!!

Now my godbrother is helping me to find that S.O.B out so he can beat him up or something i donno ~~~

As if that was not enough trouble liao then got problems with dear coz i emo a few hours n nvr talk to him .

Not that i didnt want to talk to him just dont want later say wrong things we get into arguement guess he didnt understand ba .

Why does life have to be so troublesome ..... cant i have a peaceful life with no pain n suffering !!!

Not talking to u doesn't mean that i am ignoring u , Just need some space to be A.L.O.N.E

Feel So Heart Broken

2008-10-04T03:48:00.003+08:00

Today so tired Whole Day feel so moody donno y haiz ....

Finally i fix my mic settings but then i tried testing it the sound so soft like i am talking to a mouse Grrr..... stupid desktop make me want to take hammer n bang it into pieces

I miss my laptop T.T When will u come back to me T.T

Whole day nvr cabal spend the whole night watching drama again >.<

time to go sleep le tomorrow need to follow mom go out donno what she want to buy again =.=''

2008-10-03T03:49:00.004+08:00

Today feel so tired early in the morning need to wake up go follow mummy go buy things le whole morning feel so sleepy >.<

After shopping come back le tried to call dear but donno y cant get through his phone worried if anything happen to him , then waiz korkor help me call him then found out he went out with cabal de guildmember go play basketball . hmm wonder what he doin play basketball till so late in the night . (hmm....)

Cabal got maintenance so cant play so whole night went to crunchyroll.com go see got what drama to see , then found a drama that was related to a comic i read recently Absolute Boyfriend funny but also a touching story .

Dear today also very sian whole night watching youtube lolx

Late le think i better go sleep le coz dear also waiting for me go sleep

Hope to see dear soon really really miss him >.<

永远爱你哦老公仔 <33 Muackz .....

2008-10-02T04:13:00.002+08:00

Today was just like any other day boring haiz ......
Hari raya holiday seems bored coz whole day see all those malays on their bike so damn noisy =.='' hope they all get into accident n just die !!!

Got a new phone , a gift from digi ( Thanks Digi !!! ^^ ) took me about an hour to change the settings but i cant complain since it is free lol

anyway its late now so time to go sleep le ~~~

2008-10-01T03:28:00.002+08:00

Well today was kindof a screwed up day , seeing that it rained the whole day freaking cold =.='' And went to b2f half way almost finish liao my comp dced !!! Roar !!!
Still kindda new to this blogging thing hope my dear wont laugh at me coz i am not really a person who knows how to write in blog xp
Thanks dear for helping me with this blog without u maybe i think i wont want to create this blog also . thanks orh dear Muackz ~~ <33
anyway hope things will be better tomorrow ^^